Wednesday, December 20, 2006

It's about time

Aliyah had surgery on her right kidney on November 8th.

Everything went well and, now that we have a little water under the bridge, we believe that the kidney is functioning.
But then there's the left side. It has continued to grow and is now "moderate to severe" hydronephrosis.
At our last appt. on the 11th of December, Dr requested another Isotope Renal Scan (nuclear test) and follow up appt....... before Christmas!
Well, so much for that! The appt. people are unable to get us in until mid-January so far and that is without the follow up appt with Dr afterward.
She seemed a little ticked when I was asking about all of the details and how they were not what DR asked for, but that's my job right. Not to tick her off, but to keep up on the details of my child's health!?! Right?

It is possible that she will need surgery on the left side. Bummer.
We will know more when we finally get the test done and read to us.
Thank you anyone out there praying for my baby.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

to tick me off

It probably doesn't take much to tick me off, but yesterday someone really did!

I am trying to get all manner of thing together for my kiddos for while we are apart. Hubby and I leave today for Hollywood and Children's Hospital Los Angeles so that we will be on time for tomorrows surgery on our infant. This puts me in a particularly sensitive mood.

So as we finished up getting some things from our Library and are almost to our car, I notice that the car next to us is running. I look carefully to see if anyone is going to try to back out with out looking first, and notice that there is no one in the driver seat.
Upon further examination, I find that there is a 2 to 4 year old little girl strapped into a car seat, asleep and alone. The car is unlocked, running and (as we find out later) doesn't even have an alarm set to scare anyone off! I was fuming!!!!

I left my Mom in Love with the kiddos and the air running and went back into the library with the licence plate number. This caused a big uproar in the Library staff area, and I was glad not to be the only one outraged! On the way back in I was wondering what could/should be done and if I was just still a tattle tale from my youth.
The police were called, but the careless grandparent as this case was, got there first and left promptly. One of the staff told her "You can't leave a child alone in the car" and she said "I know" got in and left!

I don't know what will happen, if anything. But it is one of the most careless things I have seen!
Not only do several children die each year due to the heat (probably why the car was running) it seems that children are at a greater and greater risk of being abducted, horribly abused and murdered! Why not just give the child away! Leave her alone in a running vehicle, she may be abducted on accident when someone tries to steal the car.

This is a very important issue to consider. Often the responsible party has simply underestimated it's importance. Our kids are precious and it is a small inconvience to skip an errand or take them in with you, especially when compared to the consequences of carelessness.!

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

tough stuff

Life has been full lately.
Last week we had a funeral for Tony, a 1st birthday party for my nephew Isaiah, and a trip down to Children's Hospital for Aliyah Sunday to Monday.

Her test wasn't so hard for her, but the preps were! She needed an IV and it took 4 tries! She has 3 brusies! The cathiter was no picinic, but not as terrible as the IV! She was so worn out that she slept thru the whole test. Daddy and Mommy got to watch her light up the screen as she was radioactive.

She will need surgery. We will be back down at Children's to have that done next Wednesday.
It was a shock to be having it so soon! I thought I'd have a chance to process it before schedualing! She has to stay at least 2 nights and I will room in, but Daddy will stay at a hotel across the street.

I will be glad when all of this is over and she is healed!

Monday, October 16, 2006

Baby update

Our little Aliyah is 6 and a half weeks old.
We saw her specialist today.
He has ordered another test, an Isotope Renal Scan.
Her right kidney enlargement is what is of concern to the Dr.

He said he thinks she will need surgery. This test will give him more of an idea of what needs to be done.

Needless to say, I am nervous and worried. I am not ready to put my baby under the knife.
If this is what she needs, we will. But it will be a very difficult decision.

Oh, Lord grant us the wisdom to care for these blessings entrusted to us! Amen.

Happy Us Birthday

Today is our "birthday" AKA wedding anniversary.

My wonderful hubby has been a strength and blessing; we complete each other beautifully.

Happy birthday Honey!
I Love You!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

just wondering

Can people hear you crying over a computer?

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

so much more

"We were meant to live for so much more"

Yesterday we were given the terrible news a dear friend, like a brother, commit suicide.

He must have been drunk to do it the way he did. In front of his fiance, on his knees in a room in their house, he shot himself in the heart. He hadn't acted as tho something was wrong, they ate dinner together Sunday night, cleared the dishes and he said, "I'm tired of living with the pain." (He had back surgery 6 years ago or so and had been living with pain since.) Then he went into the other room, got down on his knees, his fiance followed him so he told her leave. She said no, and he pulled the trigger anyway. That's the story we have heard.

It's so hard to grasp. I can't seem to bend my mind around this one.

Usually people wonder what they could've done
I don't feel that way since we are states away, but I do wish I knew more how to help the rest of the family!

If you are thinking of hurting yourself, please talk to someone!
Wheather or not you realize it, you'll be hurting more than just yourself.

Monday, October 02, 2006

Cute?

As I am schooling my 7 year old in Arithmatic, she is a little confused on a problem.
She always acts a little sulky when she doesn't understand something, so she is simply sitting.
I explain it to her and she begins to work quickly.
She says, "This is easy!"
Then leaning, giving me a hug she says,

"You are useful sometimes Mommy!"

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

In case you're still out there

I contemplated just stopping this silly nonsense..... but I feel compelled to at least complete the pregnancy updates.

On September 1, 2006, our daughter Aliyah Miechelle was born.
My first to debut before the due date, and in the afternoon! (usually we go to ER in the middle of the night)
STATS:
She was 7lbs. 6 oz.
20 in. long
head 12 3/4 in.
chest 12 1/2 in.
Time 1 pm PST

This was anothe fast one, and our DR, whose office is accross the street from the hospital, didn't make it in time. Another delivery that was truely blessed.

First the reception desk skipped the usual policy of waiting for paperwork before going to the Labor and Delivery ward. Then when our first nurse there was told they had no more beds in their triage and I'd have to wait in the waiting room, she found a free bed to check me.
At 7 cm. & 80% they got me a delivery room, tho I felt bad for the person who was going to get it and got "bumpped." We delivered shortly there after, maybe 15 minutes after getting the room.

Her umbilical cord was wrapped around her shoulders behind her neck, then down and around one of her feet. We were teasing about the acrobatics that must have been going on in there!
She has a head full of hair! Enough to do a little styling....my older daughtrs didn't have enough to style until they were a year old!!

She looks great and is doing well. At only 8 hours old they ran an ultrasound, which showed her right kidney is about twice the size it should be. Our Pediatric Urologist has ordered an X-ray of her bladder (tho it looks fine), he wants to check to see if it is leaking urine back to the kidney.
Then after this test we'll see him again and find out where we go from there. I have heard many cases of children with similar blockage or obstructions in the kidney simply out growing the problem. I am, of coarse, hoping for that!

Well, anyone left out there in cyberspace, I hope you are well.
Blessings!

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

To myself

I had been planning to write all the cute things that have been said/ done lately by my little ones. Like when pointing out that Buffalo Bill Cody lived to be 82 years old, and my 6 and 3/4 year old asked if that was older or younger than me!
But instead I opened my home page and read the headlines, and I now, depressed, am compelled to write about Andrea again.
Ms. Yates was found not guilty by reason of insanity and will be committed to a mental institution until it is found that she is no longer a "threat."
Oh, those poor children!
I took the poll after the story which read: Do you agree? Yes, she was psychotic and thought she was saving her children; No, she knew what she was doing. After choosing No of coarse, it showed 63% of those polled agreed with me. I suppose that being in the majority doesn't make you right, but it did give me comfort that I am not the lone person crying for justice. There is no justice here, but in the end it will be served.
For now I will hold my babies.............
and cry for hers.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Rantings

I am always more emotional during a pregnancy, but there also seems to be plenty to get emotional over during that time.
This time it's the retrial of Andrea Yates and the beginings of a trial for Jessica's killer, John Couey, and all the terrible details attached to those cases.
As a mother of children near the ages of the Yates children, I cannot help but imagine how each one would have acted. The feelings of utter betrayal by the one person they were always supposed to trust. I cry and cannot sleep if that is prevelant in my mind. The things those children must have lived through in their last hours! When did we as a nation decide that commiting a crime was different if you have some sort of mental condition. Five precious little ones died and some how Andrea is able to claim "not guilty"!?! By no stretch of my imagination can I consider her not guilty! She told them "I just killed my kids."
Don't get me too wrong, I think she needs treatment while in jail, but I don't think she should have the chance to get out. If she has to live with the memories of her little ones struggling under her as she drown them, I say that is what you get for such behavior. I don't believe those are psychotic episodes as much as they are memories. It would perhaps be a psychotic episode had she never commit such a heinous injustice and was still seeing those things. As I tell my little ones everytime I have to explain why they can't watch something a friend can: what you put into your mind goes in and stays in. So it is your choice what you will have to live with in your mind. (and, of coarse, for now it is my choice for them.)
The idea that the police botched the investigation against John Couey really gets me too! Read about Jessica, how full of life and love she was. Then read of the "aledged" (tho confessed!) crimes against her by a man with a criminal history! A man who never should've been out of jail! It makes me sick to think of that sweet little girl bound and buried alive after being sexually assaulted. The horror of her last hours that we wish no one ever had to go through.

We should all be outraged by these crimes against our children! We should be taking action to protect the innocent, and to protect justice. There should be no "not guilty by reason of insanity" it should always be "guilty" first and "insane" second. We should be tougher on those criminals who offend repeatedly. We should realize that some crimes, like Martha Stewart's, are insignificant compared to Couey and Duncan. Why the GPS device for Martha's offense which harms no one physically and yet we continually let these preditors out with no tracking whatsoever or only tracking which is vouluntary!?! I know just about everyone has made that argument, but there is quite a bit of truth to it. We need to re evaluate what is important to us, and act accordingly.

Monday, June 19, 2006

The Specialist Appt

Well, we went to see a perinatologist on Friday as the DR we had an appt with got sick Thursday and they had to schedual us with his partner for a visit.

He said that in the realm of problems this is "highly fixable" and that in the grander scheme of things this isn't that bad. So with that said, her kidneys don't look good. They both probably have a kink in the ureters, the right one's being a worse kink as it is twice the size of the left. One kidney is working or both are able to work partially as the amniotic fluid is at the right level. This tells us that the fluid is being processed through her system and back out again; other wise it would be a low (or lower than normal) level. It seems to be isolated to her kidneys as everything else looks fine, so that is also a blessing.

What I need now is to talk to our Family Practicioner and set up our plan of action for post birth testing and possible treatment. We wont know what needs to be done treatment wise until we've seen another specialist and have other tests run, including an ultrasound after birth and contrast testing to tell functionality. Then there's the possibility of surgery. I have a call in to our Dr and we'll see if I get a call back this time, as the last two times I have called I haven't gotten a call back! Arg!

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

OB Appt

So I had my follow up ultrasound an OB appt. last week and have had either problems with blogger or with our computer since so this is my first chance to write.

The ultrasound showed that Aliyah's right kidney is dilated to twice the size of her left kidney, which is also enlarged slightly. What this means exactly I am not sure, and I never did research it so that I wouldn't worry (any more than I already do). We will be going to a Perinatologist (sp?) on Thursday, June 15th to have a 3D ultrasound and a second opinion. We'll see, I guess.

In other news....
Second grade is off to a pretty good start. She isn't fond of her English curriculum, but that's partly because she is having to learn to work independantly, and write more down. She is really letting her penmenship go today! She just really doesn't want to do the work, and doesn't realize yet that I am more stubborn than she is.
Math is actually going better than it was, but that's partly the begining of the year review stuff...she already knows all the answers.

My son made a lovely mess of water in their room on the floor which mildewed; I had figured in our heat it would dry fast enough not to matter. I was wrong, so I am trying my 3rd or 4th cleaner today to see if we can kill it. This means that they are not allowed to be in the room while it is drying and that is driving us all crazy!

We are trying to go camping next week, an annual trip :)
I am in the process of packing, washing, and packing some more.
As usual we are keeping pretty busy!
So I will write when I have more information on what the baby's kidney situation is like.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

randomness

I couldn't think of any one thing I wanted to write about, so I decided to write about all the little things that come to mind.

Does everyone with a 2 year old have to bathe the child after every meal? This kid gets food everywhere! Sometimes I think it's just that he wants the bath. I don't remember this so much with my girls, so maybe it's a boy thing? I dunno.

My 6 year old has started writing notes all of the time. I get several daily and can count on one on my pillow for the night. Daddy gets one on his pillow too and sometimes there's one in the middle. This morning she wrote about having a lovely mommy and to have a nice last May day. Last nights had so many X's and O's! I read them to my hubby and I read XOXOXO as "KSO KSO KSO" so last night I just made the sound "KSO" several times and showed him the page!

We are officially finished with 1st grade, sniffle sniffle, who said she could grow up! And are all set for 2nd. She can't wait, but is so far enjoying this week off. She doesn't always enjoy time off. Something about not getting to start one of our new biographies for History, or work on a school work book that she wants to. I tell her there will be plenty of time to do it during school, PLAY on your time off.

My son hasn't been into so much mischief last week and this........so far.
He did have a boot in the bathroom sink this morning, but that is easy compared to all the mischeif of the week before last! He did just fall down and wanted an ice, so he grabbed a popsicle out of the freezer. Yeah, like mommy will let you have that at 10 am! Right.

I saw a "friend" who I am sure knew we are expecting, but was one of the ones I didn't really feel like telling. So I hadn't. I was asked the usual questions, but the one that stuck was 'are you excited?' At the time I was hot and tired and on the way to take my girls to a bathroom, so I probably didn't come across as excited, ya know. In my outlook all life is created to be eternal, and this is the begining of someone's eternity.... how can that not be exciting!?! We simply have very different outlooks on life.

Spent yesterday with my mother in love doing some laundry and hanging out. But I wonder everytime I am there if the bathroom soap doesn't want to wash off because of their water softener or if it's because it's dish soap? We had a nice visit, but probably spent too much time talking of friends we never see or hear from and I got to feeling bad.

I recently decided to read the book "Ninteen eighty four" and finished it off with watching the movie. The movie sucked. Really. It was so gappy that if you hadn't read the book you might be completely clueless as to what the movie was about. So I read "Make room! Make room!" and watched the movie, supposedly based on the book, "Soylent Green" and couldn't believe how far from the book it really was and how bad the acting.... ranked right up there with "Napolean Dynomite" on the bad acting! Neither book was wonderful, but classics compared to their movies!

We have a lovely tree, a mulberry. It bears terribly well and leaves tons of purple berries everywhere! I have little blck blotches all over my kitchen floor from themm being tramped in on shoes. I've decided to wait mopping until the berries are all gone. Should only be a couple of months. sigh.

Today I have to find my kitchen, again. yipee. no really, I mean that. And some time soon I should consider breakfast a little more seriously. I have my yucky pregnancy tea that I am choking down, but I guess I should get something else in there too.

So this is enough randomness. Time for food. Hope you're all well wherever you are.

Monday, May 15, 2006

A better day today?

Well, Friday wasn't exactly a pleasant day.

My Ysabella, 6 1/2 years, got her hand stabbed by a chain link fence, and we had to figure out how to take care of it best. After all that was over, we were sitting on the couch and I felt wrong, for lack of a better description. I told my hubby I wasn't feeling well, and I thought maybe I needed to eat NOW. But the next thing I knew I was going black and then I woke up.
This is my kiddos first experience with mommy's little oddity and they all thought I was just playing and being silly. This time my head turned to the side, eyes open, I made a snoring sort of noise and I straightened my extremities as tho stretching. Hubby says it was maybe 10 seconds, but to him it was a long 10 seconds! I had the privilege of loosing control of my bladder on my couch so now I have to find a way to wash the cushion. I will be calling my DRs office as soon as it's open and asking if I need an appointment or not.
So we ate dinner and went to bed. I was, of coarse there for a while after the incident, but everyone went to bed at the same time. Saturday we didn't do much, but we did go out for an early Mother's Day dinner with Family. And yesterday we did church and lunch and that was about it.

I am not feeling terrible or anything, a little sleepy and fatigued, but that's to be expected.
I will have a long day tho as we have ants in 4 rooms of our 6 room house, and they have to be eliminated as everyone (but me) is alergic to the buggers. Add to that the dishes and laundry I need to do today and the review week we are doing for school; it will be busy!

Hope all of you out there are well.

Monday, May 08, 2006

The uneasiest easy pregnancy

Well, this has been the easiest pregnancy I've had so far. I am still keeping up with everything, even helping hubby with the yard work. But the uneasiness hasn't gone away. I have had one day since we started feeling Aliyah (baby's name) kick that she simply rested too long for my comfort, and I was practically begging to be kicked.

We are between 22 and 23 weeks now and strangers can definately tell. I am young and look even younger so I get a lot of "Is this your first?"
"Your baby measures about 7.6 inches and weighs about 12.3 ounces. The muscles are getting stronger every week now, and the eyelids and eyebrows are developed. Your baby's acrobatics are pretty constant, and since she responds to sound, rhythm and melody, you can try singing and talking to her. After she's born, the same sounds will soothe her.
Your baby is about 8 inches from crown to rump and weighs almost 1 pound. The body is becoming proportioned more like a newborn, but skin is still wrinkled because your baby still has more weight to gain. Lanugo hair on the body sometimes turns darker." ~ WebMD Pregnancy Guide weeks 22 &23 *editors note: changed to be gender biased. :-D
I can definately feel the need for more rest! And standing has become one of those things I'd rather not do. But I do get plenty in as I shouldn't get too lazy.

As for school the last full week of May we test, then we'll take off the following week so that we start back on the first Monday in June. The only curriculum I lack is Science as I am buying it used from a friend and she had an unexpected family emergency this past week. I'll have it by June tho I am certain. We have been having some light school days as we have friends leaving this Wednesday to live in Alabama; we are helping by playing with the kids at my sisters house so that the momma and daddy can move easier.
They are friends that will be dearly missed and happen to be my sisters family in love, so we feel this time is precious and worth the "light" school days.
Well, I am going soon to be with them and we need to finish up here first.
Have a lovely day.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Well, the cleaning urges have not left yet, and I still can't tell if it is nesting or Spring that is driving me. Last night after dinner I cleaned the stove top, and had swept, mopped, cleaned up quite a bit of clutter on "my side of the bed," washed up a weekend worth of dishes, took care of the kiddos and all the meals of the day; yet for some reason I couldn't stop my self from cleaning the stove top until it was all finished. I started out to simply soak the top with cleaner, and 45 minutes later I was done. It seems strange to me, but I keep thinking it's possibly the only time I can get everything ready for a new arrival since know one knows what those last weeks will be like when nesting actually sets in. I have a feeling tho that being in a CA desert it will be hot!

In other news, we are quite sure we have felt baby move and Daddy and big sister Ysabella have both been kicked! We will be 20 weeks tomorrow "The fetus measures about 5.6 to 6.4 inches from crown to rump and weighs about 9 ounces. Your baby can hear sounds by now -- your voice, heart and your stomach growling, as well as sounds outside your body. It will cover its ears with its hands if a loud sound is made near you, and it may even become startled and "jump." The baby is moving often, too -- twisting, turning, wiggling, punching and kicking." ~WebMD "Guide to Pregnancy"

And that's about all that's going on here. I had borrowed my mom's car for a few weeks and so was gone to do this and that with the kiddos, but I hae given it back and am homebound. ;0) We have taken a Spring Break this week and I will be making sure I am prepared for next year as it starts in a month and a couple of weeks! (We do a year round school so that time can be taken off as necessary and to meet the intelectual need of my child for stimulation.) Come June first we jump, feet first, into Second Grade! I did however purchase a 3rd grade History book as we have gone through the 2nd grade edition several times through this last year! And I am starting the search for a good Spelling book as I haven't found one that suits her level and my taste; I don't wish my chhild to learn cursive until we have mastered print, and the book I have looked at so far has cursive so I need a different publisher. I am sure that this is all so very interesting....... no really.
I really should go start dinner preparations now.
Hope all is well with all of you.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

What to expect


Well, it took a couple hours, but we made it through the DR appt. yesterday.

We did the ultrasound first. I like these. It helps me to see what I am feeling is really baby. So we saw all looks good......
the moment that we've been waiting for....
We're expecting a girl.

Her kidneys looked a little dilated. I don't know what this means, and as for now will fight off the urge to find out. I cannot do anything about it and worry wont change anything so I think for now I will attempt not to find out more. It does however mean we will have another ultrasound in 2 months. Then I will find out more if I need to.

I cannot post a picture as so far it isn't comming out right, but I will try again another time.
I haven't gotten anything going for my family yet today so I need to keep this one short.

Adding picture now ;)

Monday, April 10, 2006

keeping busy

Well, Spring is here in California.
And I am either nesting early or Spring cleaning.
I have been keeping pretty busy with house cleaning, School and getting out.
Today I am really tired, and had just gotten the kiddos to go play a while so I could rest/pretend to sleep when our neighbors Arborists showed up to shred all the branches they butchered from their poor tree! It's loud so I got up and decided to maybe blog a little before the day really gets off to a start.

I had a strange occurance with my blood sugar yesterday. 1 hour after eating it was only 88, so I went and got a soda (we were at church and they had no juice) I drank some but not even half and after 15 minutes took my blood again and it was 78. This seemed strange to us. I drank more soda and by the end of the hour felt better, but not really good. The only conclusion we have drawn it that I possibly took the blood during a drop and the 88 wasn't the bottom of the drop, but the way down. Then the soda had only brought it back to 78. I plan on checking the machine and the batteries to make sure it was simply an errror.

I am anxiously awaiting my OB appt. tomorrow afternoon, as I will have an ultrasound then see the DR. This would be the time period when we find out gender, if possible. We are 18 weeks 5 days today.
"You'll begin to feel your baby move (called "quickening") around 18-22 weeks. It may feel like a light fluttering. " ~WebMD Pregnancy Calendar
My friends think I am so busy that I am not feeling the movements which are usually small about now. I think I feel some here and there, but don't know for sure.
I still have so many reservations, and even try not to 'get my hopes too high'. I know the DR will tell me the odds are so slim and things like that, but I don't believe in odds. When you are often in the 1% category you don't trust odds. So it will be good for me to have the ultrasound.

SO back to the cleaning and house stuff. So much has been going on here. We've been doing some work outside, I even got my first sunburn :S I got some California Poppies to plant and will plant some at my mom's for a surprise, she loves them. Now my kids will be allowed to pick some because they will be on our property. (It is the state flower of California and therefore illegal to pick unless they grow on your property.)
I changed my son to a "transition bed", he's the oldest I've ever had sleeping in a crib, and now we will get jolted out of bed every night for a while when he falls out. I laid a couple of thick blankets down by the side of his bed, so when he does fall it is a cushioned landing. And he has decided he wants to potty train, and has even gone on his first attempts! He has decided the toilet is not scary. :) We are doing more preschool with him and he is really feeling like a big boy.... where has my baby gone?
Moriah is learning much too, and has confidence in her "reading" skills now...... she reads picture stories, it is a good start to reading words. Meanwhile she is learning more letter recognition to get started on word reading. Her drawing skills are really blooming too. A friend just gave me a book for dramatic play to use for Mo, she is a ball of energy and so very creative...she needs an outlet.
Ysabella blew me away last week with her math! The book we use was giving lessons on time: O'clock, a quarter after, half past and a quarter to. She flew through it all really fast. (She is up to sums to 15 and really doesn't like the tediousness of adding and subtracting much, but does well when she applies herself. So it was really different to have math done in 5 minutes!) I was impressed, she can read digital well, but analog is a little trickier at times and though we had studied it previously, I expected her to need my help! Nope.
She has run out of lessons in her Spelling book for this year, so we are now choosing our own words and she thinks this is more fun. I think she is more challenged this way also, as some of the words she was getting in her spelling book were really too easy.
We have frequented the library so much lately, I think they know me by name. But Friday's trip was really exciting as they had their "Friends of the Library Book Sale" and I got 15 books for $1.50. Gabe, I got Chicka Chicka Boom Boom for 10 cents! It was a good day :)

So I think that about brings you up to speed and me up to breakfast!
I should write more soon as the appt. tomorrrow will give us news to share.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

Poetry

Forgiven
By A.A.Milne
(taken from Now We Are Six)

I found a little beetle, so that Beetle was
his name,
And I called him Alexander and he answered
just the same.
I put him in a match-box, and I kept him
all the day . . .
And Nanny let my beetle out--
Yes, Nanny let my beetle out--
She went and let my beetle out--
And Beetle ran away.

She said she didn't mean it, and I never said
she did.
She said she wanted matches and she just took off
the lid,
She said that she was sorry, but it's difficult
to catch
An excited sort of beetle you've mistaken for
a match.

She said that she was sorry, and I really mustn't
mind,
And there's lots and lots of beetles which she's
certain we could find
If we looked about the garden for the holes where
beetles hid--
And we'd get another match-box and write
BEETLE on the lid.

We went to all the places which a beetle might
be near,
And we made the sort of noises which a beetle
likes to hear,
And I saw a kind of something, and I gave a sort
of shout:
"A beetle-house and Alexander Beetle coming out!"

It was Alexander Beetle I'm as certain as can be
And he had a sort of look as if he thought it must
be ME,
And he has a sort of look as if he thought he ought
to say:
"I'm very, very sorry that I tried to run away."

And Nanny's very sorry too for you-know-what-
she-did,
And she's writing ALEXANDER very blackly on
the lid.
So Nan and Me are friends, because it's difficult
to catch
An excited Alexander you've mistaken for a match.

Monday, March 27, 2006

an updating

I tried to post a picture last week and it told me bogger couldn't do it....arg.
So I gave up.
I was pretty busy with visiting here and there, with family; so that's all of my excuses for being away so long.

Friday, I had my follow up with my GP Dr and it went well.
He said that I am doing a good job. He likes the changes I have made.
And he even said that he thought my dietician planned a diet for me before she met me and never adjusted for my own individuality.
I don't have to see him again for a while, unless I need to. So that is another blessing.
When pregnant I think you have too many appointments already, but when adding seeing a DR frequently and the dentist appts I need to make and then there's life in general...... it seems to me to be too many.
But here I am complaining about 2 DR appts a month when so many with different "conditions" have several more as normal. My Mom is a diabetic and she has several Dr appts every month and my Mother in Love has a friend with weekly Dr appts and tests! :( really sad to me.

As you see I still can ramble well.
We are almost 17 weeks.
"Your baby, now about in its 15th week of development, measures about 4.4 to 4.8 inches from crown to rump and has doubled in weight in the last two weeks to about 3.5 ounces. Fat begins to form, helping your baby's heat production and metabolism. The lungs are beginning to exhale amniotic fluid, and the circulatory and urinary systems are working. Hair on head, eyebrows and eyelashes is filling in." ~http://www.webmd.com/content/article/64/72366.htm~

Still I feel no movements, at least none that are unmistakable. I think I am feeling baby on occasions, but I did think that last time I had felt some movements, when it turned out we had miscarried, lost the baby, 2 weeks prior. Once again, it is a normal thing for many women at this stage of pregnancy to not feel or to be uncertain if they do or do not. I just have 3 children I felt by now, so I had hoped to be there again. I think it would ease some of the apprehension to be able to feel movement on a regular basis; knowing me, then I may start to wonder how regular a basis it must be to be a good indication everything is fine. I'll feel better when we deliver. I think.

Ok school awaits us.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Second OBGYN appt.

I have been kinda busy with kiddos, house and drs! So I have posted a little less often.... but as I look around, I'm not the only one!

Yesterday I had my second OB appt. at 14 weeks, 4 (or 5) days.
I gained weight, a good thing for us!
All of my tests are normal and fine.

When the nurse practitioner (whom I got to see yesterday in leiu of a DR) came in I asked, a little shakily, if we could do the dopplar for the heart beat first.
She hesitated asking if anything was wrong, but as I started to explain that this was the appt. at almost the same week number when we found out everything was NOT fine last time, she stopped me in mid sentence saying, "We'll do it right now."
The heart beat was audible and at 158 beats per minute.... that's good for babies.
I was relieved, but am still apprehensive. I don't want to "feel safe". I don't think I'll allow myself that comfort yet.

Typically, for my other pregnancies, I have started feeling the baby move around 14 to 16 weeks, and we don't feel baby yet. **This is rather early by most standards. Most women don't expect to feel movements until 20 weeks.** I am not concerned as of yet, of coarse, I think I will feel a little easier once we feel movement tho.

I am still, quite thankfully, not sick... at least not as is my norm.
And so far I am still able to lift my kids as necessary and do house work, something that usually ceases during my pregnancies! :S

I mentioned the diet to the nurse practitioner yesterday, saying that I was put on a diet, but have taken myself off!!! And that is basically where we're at! I am watching my intakes and monitoring my blood sugar and so far so good. She told me the only thing I need to do is eat every couple of hours and monitor my sugar intake. Nothing more. I like her! ;) (Really, I actually do!)

Pap Smear aside, it was a great appt. ;)
My next one in 4 weeks we will have our ultrasound.
Baby allowing we will be able to tell just whom we have in there!
Then we start the name picking, but that's another post. ;)

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Proud momma

My little Ysabella is 6 and a half years old. Her sister Moriah will turn 4 tomorrow. We had purchased presents, and Ysa helped pick them, but she decided she wanted to get something else for her sister.... something from only her.

I had to check to make sure no other family member had used the idea and talk over yet another toy for Mo with Daddy, but we decided it would be fine.
Then to my surprise, my 6 year old insisted on spending her own money. "I want it to be from me." she said. I said, "It can be from you even if daddy and mommy use their money." But this would be no good to her. Even tho I explained it would take all of the money she had in her wallet, she still wanted to buy it by herself for her little sister.
So after church on Sunday we went to Wal*Mart and she and daddy went in to buy it.

They found a few "little" other things too that daddy wanted to get, and Ysa started to get nervous that she wouldn't have enough for the "big" thing marked at $16.40 something. SO she proposed to daddy that she purchase the "little" things and daddy buy the "big" thing. That poor kid, she bought the "little" things to the tune of $17 something. (She paid $10 on a gift card and daddy picked up the rest w/o her knowing it) And when daddy checked out the "big" thing, he only paid $5!!!

We have decided to put $5 back on her card since what she wanted to get was only $5 and she spent $10 buying stuff that daddy was getting.
But I am no less proud that she has the desire to get for others at the expense of not getting anything for herself with that same money! **Sniffle sniffle**

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Ok, I'm ticked!

So I have been calculating half the day away, and found out that my first day on this diet I only got in 1506 calories! I was amazed that I wasn't in worse shape that day!
So I decided to calculate the diet using the ammounts and times and the calories on my list sheet of acceptable foods and substitutes. I used cows milk calculations even tho she wants me on soy and used the medium fat meat/substitute calorie intake, since that's what she used.
(I normally eat from the very lean to lean categories. This makes a calorie difference from Medium fat at 75 cals. to lean at 55 to very lean at 35.)
I was dumbfounded that the diet gives me less than 1800 a day (1755 to be exact) and I was trying to get her up to 2000 which she agreed to! And she acted like the things she added would bring it up enough. (* Editors note: Reworking the math brought up the cals. to 2055., but figuring in the lean meat difference it is a minimum of 1615.)
No wonder I feel half starved!
I haven't calculated all the days yet, but I am sure they are too low!
My OBGYN wants my calories at between 2200 - 2400 daily. I have call into my GP about the diet to see what he thinks. But for now I think this thing is canned!

Don't get me wrong I am not going to binge on high sugar foods or anything. But I think I'll eat what I want and continue my detailed diet logging of what, when and how I feel.
I "cheated" today and ate a serving of fruit for breakfast, and ya know what? I felt better this morning than I have since going on this silly diet!

So it probably has to do with hormones that I am so ticked that the calories are so low or maybe it's got something to do with the worry of starving me and baby to death! But I am pretty ticked and don't know if I can trust this dietician!

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

A quote for today...

I have been drinking tea from a company that puts quotes or thoughts on the paper.
I thought this one was funny.

"Let your manners speak,
your deeds prove and
your delivery impress."

Now maybe it's only me, but on a bag of"Pregnancy Support Tea"
"Your delivery impress" takes on a whole new meaning.
So I thought it was funny and decided to share it with you all!

Monday, February 27, 2006

Saw the nutritionist Friday

Well, I think I set myself up to be disappointed. I had so much I felt I could get out of this appt. and here I am more confused than before!

Let's go back.
I have Hypoglysemia, or low blood sugar. I understand the need to limit sugars and carbs, so that I don't have the usual spike-drop in blood sugar occur.

I was told by my DR that I needed to cut back on starches, and fruits, and definately the sugars.

The nutritionst says:
NO Cow's milk.
NO types of sugar including sugar substitutes and honey.
NO Milk, Fruits or Juices before 10 or 11 am.
And NO juices at all!
NO Caffiene or any type of soda.
NO eating starches and vegetables at the same meal.
Only 2 friut servings per day and only in the amts. listed.
I am to eat at the specified times and not 15 minutes of variation either way.....on time!
(I can see it now..."Oh, I'm sorry son. I can't change your diaper now beccause if i try I'll be late for my snack. You can wait about 30 minutes more right?:S)

I am to eat 3 servings of vegetables in one setting. I love my veggies, but 3 cups raw or 1 1/2 cups cooked is quite a bit for one setting! She says "You'll feel full." But that's not what I need.

At first she had me at a 1830 cal. per day diet, but I protested as I am pregnant.
"Oh," she says, "You don't need more than normal until you're in the 2nd trimester."
I said, "Yeah, but I'll be there on Wednesday!" So I got her to come up to 2000 cal.
This seems obsurd to us as I have no need to loose weight.
I am sure this will sicken those who have to diet, but I actually have a hard time gaining weight. I can loose 10 lbs. if I get the flu. I don't need to restrict my calories! and especially not while pregnant!!!!!
Maybe you are thinking that by eating "right" I will gain weight.
I do eat right. My DR and the Nutritionist both said I had a very good and balanced diet, except for the fact that my pancrease (sp?) thinks it needs to put out more insulin than it does.

So here we are back to square one of the confusion. I had not been sick for about 2 weeks before Friday's appt. Saturday was my first day trying this diet and I was sick, and felt half starved! I was worse yesterday and actually threw up my lunch (and the snack from and hour before that) in a parking lot. I was so embarased! And once again sick and hungry! Those two things really don't go together well!

I am thinking that I will hve to tinker with this diet and ask an expert on the WebMD forums!
Keep me in mind, and if you pray, I would covet your prayers!

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

just a rant

SO maybe it's the hormones, but I have a short fuse for obnoxious things.

This Avis commercial is buggin!
SO it is a "rent from us and eventually we'll give you a free rental"
and it goes something like this...
A couple driving (In a rented car from Avis no doubt)
And the female (passenger) is trying to guess where they are headed.

This is the part that bugs!
1/2 of the 4 places she lists are inherently girly! "Oh, that Bed and Breakfast?
A Day Spa?" Perhaps he wants to go Skiing or Apple picking, but it seems to me like she wants him to do something she'd like to do...... not necessarily something he'd want to do or they could enjoy together.

So when they get there and they are taking "Lasso lessons" she's obviously ticked.
Well, prissy missy you were fine with him doing things you'd like....right?
I think it epitomizes our selfish society that wants the world to revolve around "me" no matter what that means for "you" and the rest of everyone else.
Roping is fun! I can rope a slow moving fence! teehee! She should suck it up and give it a try and maybe they can discover things that they like together. He's obviosly taken her to "that" Bed and Breakfast, kinda boring for a guy, but it wouldn't be "that" if they hadn't tried it.

Hubby and I like many things together, and many I wouldn't even kow how much I like them if I hadn't tried. In fact, there are times when a friend asks him to go do something and he declines the offer cause he'd rather go do that with me! And I love that!

So I guess moral of the story is:
Pregnant women are touchy!
:P

Monday, February 20, 2006

Book worms

So I haven't really been MIA for the last week...I just left up the last blog (at the top of the page) so that people like CJ and Karen could find it when they came back.

But enough of that!

I have been wanting to compile this list and maybe encourage a few people to read these books to their kids. I wont give age ranges as we don't follow those and my kids always enjoy anything I read to them!

In no particular order:

Tumble Bumble by Felicia Bond
I'll Love you forever by Robert Munsch Ill. by Sheila McGraw
If you give a..... books (Mouse a Cookie; Moose a Muffin; Pig a Pancake)
by Laura Joffe Numeroff Ill. by Felicia Bond
Little Bear by Else Homelund Minarik Ill. by Maurice Sendak
Little Cloud (or any books by) By Eric Carle
Can't you sleep, Little Bear? byMartin Waddell Ill. by Barbra Firth
(Side Note: Barbra firth is an excelent Illustrator! You have to see the details!)

I also really enjoy a book called Zin Zin Zin a Violin but I don't know author info!

We like series like Amelia Bedelia by Peggy Parish (and other authors)
Little House series by Laura Ingalls Wilder
The Box Car Children by Gertrude Chandler Warner
I am sure I don't need to mention The Winne the Pooh series by A.A. Milne, but it's me I'll do it anyway!
The Padddington Bear series is also fun; got my kids hooked on Orange Marmalade! :0)
(Can't remember the author! :S)
And anything by Dr Seuss is always an entertaining challenge to tackle and we all get to giggling!
"Big I, little i, I, i, i, Icabod is itchy, so am I!" from the ABC book

This is just a sampling... we love books!
You can look these up at your library's website and even request the titles. Then all you have to do is run in to the library when you get a chance and pick them up at the front! I love this way to save time when I know what I need, but don't have the time to spend looking for it in the library. (It usually takes a week to have them there, here anyway, as some have to travel from other libraries in the county. And they'll hold them for 2 weeks after sending you notice in the mail.)
But it isn't only a fun way to spend our time it helps them to learn and most importantly to learn to love to read!
I have to go cuddle up with the books I took down (must spell names corectly) and my little ones and enjoy our favorite pass time!
Have fun!

Monday, February 13, 2006

The Cat is out of the bag...


So I can now tell you all that we are expecting an addition to our family in early September!

All of you who have guessed that, yeah, you were right.
I have this thing tho about my family finding out first. I made only small exceptions and most were for the purpose of prayer!

That makes us 10 weeks 5 days along which is farther than we made it the last 2 times when we miscarried. Last Friday I saw the OB and had an ultrasound, so we were able to see the baby move and the heart beat. They recommended that we take baby asprin one a day, every day. DR said that sometimes mothers have a problem with clotting, which causes the loss. We don't know that was the case, but they feel it is a precaution that should be taken. They don't feel I am "habitual", which is good because that increases the risk of another miscarrriage and makes it a high risk pregnancy. But they said I don't show signs of that, and have successfully delivered 3 babies.

I don't think I will feel "comfortable" until the baby is born and in my arms. I can no longer think that if things are "going the way they should" that it means we are "safe". I am not stressed about it so don't worry about that. I believe that God is the Creator and Sustainer of all life (as defined in the Psalms as from conception) and that He gifts these precious little ones to me for a short time..... my job is to give them back to Him. Also believeing Him to be good, I trust Him to allow whatever needs to be in my life and bring me through it a stronger and better vessel.

So far I am not so sick. I have a Sept. baby, and she and I were here together 7 years ago. Yet I remember it like it was last week. I was so sick and only got sicker and sicker and nothing helped, no Rx drug, no natural vitamins and herbs, and I found out I am intolerant to the Rx prenatals, I believe because they are synthetic. So by now with her, we were learning the finer art of driving and throwing up at the same time, and had some non oral medicine (yuck!) and became familiar with bathrooms all over my area. I was sick like that thru at least 20 weeks and then it settled to being only a couple times per week that I would throw up, through the end of the pregnancy. My shortest bout was with my son and I was done being terribly sick at 16 or 17 weeks.
So this time seems like a cake walk. I didn't know it could be so easy and still be pregnant. My only times of not being sick during this time we miscarried early. So to see baby was a bit of a relief still, tho it doesn't seem like "safe" is a real thing. Dr told me to think about the successes I have had and not the losses.

Well, enough of this rambling giving out more TMI as usual!
I'm off to give baths and start our school day!

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Really have something to say?

Today instead of simply rambling as usual....
I thought I'd spend some time explaining a discovery I may have made.
No it's nothing big or scientific, but may make me a little less mysterious!

With a diagnosis of Hypoglysemia, which is low blood sugar, many of my episodes of loss of consciousness could be contributed to the blood sugar issue.
Now I had figured this could be the case with the fainting like stuff, but what about the seizure like stuff?
Well, the recent advances in studies have revealed that not all seizure like behavior can be contributed to the two former causes, epilepsy, or faking for attention. They have decided to make a new category called Non Epileptic Seizures or Non Epileptic Events. Of which there are two categories, Psychological and Physiological.

Now some of the stuff I have researched suggest that NES can only be the psychological events, but there is much evidence that physiological conditions can contribute to these types of convulsions.

So what's my point?
Simply this...
It is highly probable that I have experienced NES of physiological origin due to drops in blood sugar. The only thing that hinders this from being a truely enlightening finding is that when I had my last 2 episodes, they were 15 minutes apart and I was 20 weeks pregnant, I had to be sent to the ER and there, directly after having a convulsive episode, my blood sugar tested 100 which is in the normal range. So now I simply don't understand how it could recover so quickly!

But perhaps this is the begining of a life a little less mysterious!
(Do I have to change the name of my blog?) ;0)
{Editors note ;) The original intent of this blog, started at WebMD's request, was to share with others whatever medical condition you had. So my title was "Medical Mysteries of Monica" as we don't have a specific condition found... only certain symptoms that something isn't right... maybe that screw that's loose?!? ;) }

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

the things kids say or should this be the things MY kids say?

Due to the fact that we have a difficult time getting our kids to eat meat, and sometimes anything other than junk, we instituted the so many bites rule. Depending on the age of said child they are expected to eat at least one bite for each year they are old. (they have to be actual bites too, not nibbles)
So our 3 year old (who will have to take 4 bites starting next month) begged yesterday to have 3 more bites. She usually goes on and on (at dinner particularly) about how this is the "best dinner I've ever had today" while she sits avoiding eating any of it; and that's exactly what she had done prior to the begging. So we allowed her 3 bites. I saw 1 and 2 but missed seeing if she had taken 3 or not. So I asked her, thinking the whole time that as any kid would she'd lie to avoid bite 3, and she said that she had eaten it already.
I suggest that perhaps for our sake she can choke down another bite to make sure? And my 6 year old backed me up by saying "Yeah, Mo, you should take bite 3 again."
To this Moriah responds, "I can't. I already ate it."
SO I figured she must have actually eaten it since the response time was so quick and accurate especially for a 3 year old!

Adventures in family life

Well, we are all sick now..... thankfully not the stomach flu like fever and throwing up thing my son did last week, but we all have some sort of cough and sneezing-running stuffed noses (if that makes sense) and a general ill feeling.

Add to this the carelessness of my 6 year old who threw a book yesterday, which hit my almost 4 year old in the nose causing it to bleed. And my son constantly trying to climb out of his crib at nap time. And the mellow drama that goes on continually; yesterday Ysa (6) was Laura Ingalls, Moriah (>=4) was Mary Ingalls, and Nathaniel (2) was Mr. Edwards. Today they are some of their own made up characters and they keep switching who they are so I can't even tell you which "friends" are here right now.

So I made soup for dinner, Sopa de Albondigas, and it turned out quite a bit more meatball and less soup, so I'll just be adding to it for dinner tonight, but that's less work than a normal dinner, so I'm not complaining.
Due to brain fog on all our parts, school will be light duty this week.
Yesterday we did: Spelling: new list; Math: introducing 3 addends; and watched a Science movie. So today we will most likely continue on that same path. Ysa, of coarse, reads all the time so I don't have to assign it much, and she's having Little House withdrawls since we are waiting to go to the Library for the last book in the series. She's already asked if we can start over again since we don't have the last book right now!

I am still waiting for a returned call from the nutritionist so we can make a new appt. and Friday we have 2 appt.s so I may have a busy for me week.

So I think I'm going to stop this stream of consciousness writing and go rest now.
Wish me well.
;0)

Friday, February 03, 2006

Appt. Reschedualed

Well, yesterday my little guy was under the weather.
He was stomach flu like sick and we had to cancel my appt. with the nutritionist.
I was bummed as I had high hopes of being able to eat better starting yesterday, but the little guy comes first! Don't worry he is bouncing off the walls today and making up for lost mischief time now! ;o)

So for now I have no new news. Bummer.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Would you be irked?

So today is the first, the lovely day that I pay rent. usually I get it there a few days early, but I wasn't feelin' all that well, so I didn't do it until today.
Anyway, we have kind of a sticky relationship with our landlord. When we moved in here a lady from our church was the manager for her grandparents in law who owned the property. Her husband never seemed to care for me, but it never really concerned me. I figured we were different types of people, so maybe it was just that. His wife and I became good friends and spent a good deal of time together until a year and a half ago when she moved. They got a divorce, and as they almost all are, it wasn't pretty. I think this hurt the already uneasy relationship with her now ex husband and myself as now I was the exwife's friend.
Well, before all that divorce stuff they lost the grandparents 3 months apart. So now the ex husband is my landlord.
He seems cool with us and doesn't act as put off by me a he did before. (Maybe now I am more of a person since he's had to talk to me instead of his exwife doing it.) But a lady that lives with him seems to dis like me very much. They are next door to us and since the post office failed to deliver my rent one month, I walk the check over. When there is a vehicle present, I always ring the bell first, and for a couple of months I got the lady; she seemed very put off that it was me and was rude. And one other time their mail got delivered to my house, but I didn't know anyone's name, except my landlord and she was like mad at me when I tried to give her their mail! So now, when the vehicle is there, I ring the bell and no one comes. Eventually tired of standing in the chilling 25 mph wind, I put the check in the mail box.
Today after puttting the check into the mail box, I wasn't even back to my own when she came out and got their mail. It kinda irks me that she totally avoids me. I try to be a nice person and I have never been mean to her in anyway. Maybe now it is she who doesn't like me for being the exwife's friend?

Oh well!
A good rant always helps!

In other news,
I tried to tell my mother in love my secret..... it didn't get through!
But just so you know Jenn, I am trying to tell you soon.
In fact I have thought a few times that I could tell everyone who reads this and no one in my family would ever know..... not one of them reads it! I guess they hear enough from me all the time :S

Monday, January 30, 2006

Switchfoot....

"We've got information in the information age,
but do we know what
life is
outside of our convenient Lexus cages."

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

The test results are in..... may I have the envelope please...

So you'll all be glad to know that I had my Drs appt. yesterday, and found out that I failed both tests with flying colors!
The heart monitor showed several bursts of rapid heart rate with no reason and apparently I didn't notice since I never touched the button thingy.
The Glucose test showed hypoglysemia, tho some would call it pre diabetes.
I was high at the 2 hour mark and low at 3 and 4; man does that explain why I felt so terrible at hour 3 and 4!!!
The Dr is sending me to a nutritionist for some help in dietary changes; he said my diet was great and very healthy, but I get too many carbs at a time. He said I should have a half slice of toast instead of a whole slice, and I need to cut my fruit servings back! (I wonder how many people are told to eat less fruit!) Also things like corn have to be smaller servings, so no more whole cobs for me! The only caffine intake I get is from black tea and he said no more caffine at all. *Sniffle sniffle* He also said the cheesecake is a no no! Can you believe this! ;o) It's a sad day when your told no more cheesecake! Afterall it haas cheese, a protein, and egg, another protein....and those are good for you....right?!?
So now the hated low carb diet thing is going to be a whole family thing. I figure it may be easier now that Hubby and I are on similar diets, and if genetics come through for the kids the odds are great that they will strugge with hypoglysemia or diabetes at some point in thier lives. So maybe it will be a help to them for me to get them strated in the right direction.
The Dr said it is his present opinion that all my spells, the heart rate and other symptoms are blood sugar related, and the comfort in that is perhaps if I get this under control, I wont faint/or seize or whatever, any more! And, my favorite, I can be drug free!

Monday, January 23, 2006

Back again....

Well, we had a wonderful 2nd Birthday for my son.
The zoo was tons of fun, and everyone was able to make it.
Afterward we went to Bob's Big Boy a historic landmark, and excelent restaraunt in Glendale, CA.

Traffic wasn't too terrible and we made it there and back without seeing an accident!

Now I have three days of dishes to catch up with and zero motivation! I am sooooo tired!
Tomorrow my mother in love is comming for the day so that hubby can take me to my DR in the afternoon. Which means I may have results of tests for y'all day after tomorrow.... but also it means that if I don't get my dishes done, she'll finish them for me! Gotta love free help!

If I could only convince my 6 year old that spelling wont kill her then perhaps the day would go by faster! I was hardly able to pull myself out of bed at 9 am and after breakfast I climbed back in for 15 minutes "rest" while my 2 year old wiggled under the covers next to me. Now it's almost lunch time and I have no idea what we'll do for that or for dinner, and both could be contingint on the rest of those dishes being clean! Yikes! I sure hope not, or we may starve!

Is it nap time yet?
I have decided that this should become more of a priority, nap time for me, I mean.
If I can get the little two down at the same time, I can give my bigger one a reading assignment on her bed until I wake up and it should all be good. Reading is Ysa's favorite subject and she doesn't really mind what she reads, but if I let her choose it will be Little House! So that seems like a plan, ay.

Well, enough blabbing. maybe I'll have something more interesting soon.
Thank you all for your encouragement on the last couple of posts!
:0)

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Still have not much to say.

Glad to find my last post was at lest partly amusing! :0)

Not feeling well today and I need to be fine for Staurday as the Zoo trip will be exausting if I feel fine!

In other news......
I used to post regularly at the efa.org ecommunities, but I got side tracked with my Christmas projects and trying to learn to blog. So, quite guiltily, I went there a couple of days ago and updated everyone on how I've been, and I was surprised to find a wonderful warm welcome! I felt so loved, cause they are really a great group of people.
I highly suggest this site for people with epilepsy and those who have children with it! It has a lot of great information and all of the people are willing to share their situations and research.
WebMD also has a support group for people with epilepsy, and I haven't been there much since they redid the boards! I confuse easily!

I feel like if I don't have epilepsy after all I shouldn't frequent the sites for people with epilepsy, but I may never know for sure! And the friends I have there don't think I should leave. Like I said there really great.

So that's what I've been up to..... not too much else.

Amapain, if youre out there somewhere, you've got me worried, it's been 5 days since you last posted.....are you ok?
And to all my other fellow bloggers...... I notice when you're gone too! But she's the only one out right now.
OK that's all

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

I am sooo boring!

Sometimes I really have to think a while of what to blog and still come up with nothing!

My 6 year old spell check is over my shoulder catching anything I miss! Instead of doing her spelling lesson I might add. And I am finding that I really have nothing to say! I know that is truely amazing to those who know me! But I guess I have a mental block.

I am trying to come up with a way to tell my secret to my loved ones, (they'll figure it out soon if I don't) then I can tell you all. I was thinking of telling everyone when we are at the Zoo on Saturday, but I'd like to keep the attention on my Birthday Boy!
He is excited, not about his birthday which he seems not to understand, but that we will have a party with Uncle Tim and Grandpa! They will both be there and he is really looking forward to seeeing them!
Last night during his prayers, I help him by giving him words to say and he repeats,
I said, "Thank you God for Daddy," He said, "Tain tu God for Daddy,"
I said, "and for Mommy," He said, "Uncle Tim,"
I said, "and for Bella," He said, "for Bewa, Mo"
I said, "and for Neno," He said, "Uncle Tim"
Me, "and Auntie Jodi," Him, "Auntie Jodi an Uncle Tim!"

So I'm getting the impression that he may be fond of his Uncle Tim! Whaddya think!?!
We all love our Uncle Tim and Auntie Jodi and new baby Isaiah! We look forward to seeing them Saturday! And until then, dishes, laundry and school await me. Bored yet?

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Sorry to keep you waiting...

I didn't get a chance to post yesterday as I was at the lab for most of the day and took a long nap when I got home. You could say I was drained! It seems the most fitting word!

So this is how it went.
They first did a finger prick blood sugar test to make sure my fasting sugar was in the normal range. When it was normal they drew a vile.
Then came the icky drink stuff. It was orange so it wasn't as bad as some I have had!
After that we drew blood every hour for 5 hours! (9:15, 10:15, 11:15, 12:15 & 1:15)
I didn't feel well at all, but I did make it through the whole thing.
They let me drink an alright amount of water, and so this time my veins didn't collapse.
6 viles total.... not too bad.

The lab techs were very nice and very encouraging! So all in all it was an alright day.
I tried to read, but by hour 4 I wasn't able to make any sense of the words. I could still read them, but couldn't retain nor comprehend much of what I was reading, so I gave up on that.

Hubby was there and supprtive too. He bought me lunch on the way home. We decided drive through was best so I didn't have to wait and could get home quick. I managed to fininsh off my meal faster than I should have and was sick for the rest of the evening. That was smart!
And rounded out the day with a 2 hour nap!!! That was nice!

So now I can tell my DR that was the last GTT I will take! Not goin' ta do that stuff again for a while! I will have bruises for a few days where they drew and may be a bit sore, but it's over!!!
Yippee!

In other news....
My baby boy will be 2 years old next Friday....*sniffle sniffle*
We are planning a trip to the LA Zoo. As members we get in free and I have enough free passes (a member perk) that I can take Grandpa, Grandma, Grammie, Uncle Tim and Auntie Jodi with us for free! So it seems like fun and, hey, it's free. Still don't know what to give him, other than the balloons we decided on months ago, but it will come to me... and hopefully quick!

Well, hope you are all having a nice weekend!

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

"WHY GOD MADE MOMS"

Answers given by 2nd grade school kids to the following questions: (I think some of them must have been in the second grade for a long time to come up with some of the stuff they said)

Why did God make mothers?
1. She's the only one who knows where the scotch tape is.
2. Mostly to clean the house.
3. To help us out of there when we were getting born.

How did God make mothers?
1. He used dirt, just like for the rest of us.
2. Magic plus super powers and a lot of stirring.
3. God made my Mom just the same like he made me. He Just used bigger parts.

What ingredients are mothers made of?
1. God makes mothers out of clouds and angel hair and everything nice in the world and one dab of mean.
2. They had to get their start from men's bones. Then they mostly use string, I think.

Why did God give you Your mother & not some other mom?
1. We're related.
2. God knew she likes me a lot more than other people's moms like me.

What kind of little girl was your mom?
1. My mom has always been my mom and none of that other stuff.
2. I don't know because I wasn't there, but my guess would be pretty bossy.
3. They say she used to be nice.

What did mom need to know about dad before she married him?
1. His last name.
2. She had to know his background. Like is he a crook? Does he get drunk on beer?
3. Does he make at least $800 a year? Did he say NO to drugs and YES to chores?

Why did your mom marry your dad?
1. My dad makes the best spaghetti in the world. And my Mom eats a lot.
2. She got too old to do anything else with him.
3. My grandma says that Mom didn't have her thinking cap on.

Who's the boss at your house?
1. Mom doesn't want to be boss, but she has to because dad's such a goofball.
2. Mom. You can tell by room inspection. She sees the stuff under the bed.
3. I guess Mom is, but only because she has a lot more to do than dad.

What's the difference between moms & dads?
1. Moms work at work and work at home & dads just go to work at work.
2. Moms know how to talk to teachers without scaring them.
3. Dads are taller & stronger, but moms have all the real power 'cause that's who you got to ask if you want to sleep over at your friend's.
4. Moms have magic, they make you feel better without medicine.

What does your mom do in her spare time?
1. Mothers don't do spare time.
2. To hear her tell it, she pays bills all day long.

What would it take to make your mom perfect?
1. On the inside she's already perfect. Outside, I think some kind of plastic surgery.
2. Diet. You know, her hair. I'd diet, maybe blue.

If you could change one thing about your Mom, what would it be?
1. She has this weird thing about me keeping my room clean. I'd get rid of that.
2. I'd make my Mom smarter. Then she would know it was my sister who did it and not me.
3. I would like for her to get rid of those invisible eyes on the back of her head.

Hope ya had a laugh!
Blogger ate my last post :/ arrrrg. So we'll see how this round goes!

Monday, January 09, 2006

I have to address something...

I usually address comments in the comments portion, but these 2 comments need airing where everyone can read them.

Karen, you posted under the poem, "If I had my child to raise over again" that I am patient. :/
Unfortunately this is a misconception! I wish it were true, and unfortunately the only way to aquire such things as patience is to suffer trials and perservere. :( Yuck! I do however find the compliment a help, as everytime I have yelled at my children since reading it I think how unlike that statement I am how how much more I should try.

Jenn, I have to admit, about telling my secret before the 13th of this month, it should be out of the question! I simply cannot tell everyone until some very important people have been informed.... yet due to the nature of some of these people, I cannot tell them for sometime! However, what everyone needs to hear is the chances of me making it as long as I would set out to is slim to none! I am horrible at waiting (hence the no patience thing!) for secrets/surprises to come out! When I was a little girl I used to show my sisters their Christmas presents days to weeks before Christmas. One year in my preteen years I decided to wrap a particular present so I wouldn't show my sister..... until I could bear it no longer and carefully unwrapped the gift, showed her and rewraped it! :} My sisters were masters at fake surprise faces (8-o) as most years there wasn't a thing under the tree I hadn't already shown them or told them about!!!
So we will see how long I can really last!

As for the GTT, I've had several ranging from the 1 hour to 3 hour tests and all have been fasting.... don't know what they let you do with different Drs and different states, but here with my labs/Drs I cannot drink much water, just enough to wet your mouth. Cannot eat anything nor chew gum and have to have blood drawn every hour (on the hour/ half hour mark), some start with a draw then you drink the icky stuff then it's every hour... some start with the icky stuff and then it's every hour, so we'll see what they do this time! I am sure it wont be the best day, but I've had many worse! Hubby and I aren't sure I will be able to make the full 5 hrs as the 3 hrs are usually pushing it! But I suppose that if I faint or seize or whatever, we can have it documented.... maybe we should bring the video camera... just in case! ;)

That's all the ramblings for now!

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Eureka! I found it

My kitchen didn't disappear, as I had feared, over the holidays... it was there under everything else!

I had an extended vacation from the pc (and housework) as hubby was home from the Thursday before Christmas to the Monday after New Years! It was nice and we all are having daddy withdrawls! (We are a very connected family!)

I was finally able to schedual my blood draw. :\ Yippee :/
It will be on Friday the 13th! I am not stupidstitious (a Monicaism), it just figured.
I am not thrilled about the length of this GTT (not the exact test as the link, but close enough) as 5 hours after overnight fasting and I don't mix well. Am not sure who will be taking me but I have plan A and B ready and a babysitter to boot!
It will probably be no where near as terrible as I think and, hey, I'll probably get to go to lunch afterward! Ahhhhhhh, the silver lining.

I am having a difficulty blogging as I have something I can't yet mention and ya know how when your not allowed to do something it becomes more tempting? Like someone says "don't look" and your head reflexively turns... or talking about blinking or yawning, you inevitably do it!

Anyway I will post whatever nonsense I can for now and I'll keep ya posted when I can.
I know something you don't know....tee hee **wink*wink**